missing him.like crazy

What do you do when the one you love

walks out of your life in the blink of an eye?

well i still have no idea how to answer this

question.....

I have NEVER been so heart broken by

any one person. reading over the last

message i received from him...

"im done with an us"

has been the hardest one for me. he has

never said anything like that to me, so i

have no idea how to get over that!

ive never met someone who can make me

laugh when im mad,sad, or upset. and since

im all off those things, and people are trying

to cheer me up, nothing is helping. no one

can make me feel better but the one person

thats making me worse. so ill probably never

get better. everything has been going completely

wrong with everything that i do. i feel so

incomplete. gosh this blog today just sounds so

stupid.

but i just wish he could see how terrible i am

without him. how much i wish he was still in

my life. how much i miss his phone calls, even

if i only get to talk to him for not even a minute.

how i miss his hugs and the warmth of his body

next to mine. how i miss his huge smile every time

he kisses me. how i miss hand in mine. how i miss

him singing and dancing over Skype whether he is

singing to me or not. how i miss all the cute things

he has said to me over the past year. i think the

best way to put it is i miss every single thing about

him. and without him im not me.

i will still love him. forever.