6 days.

there is only six more days until Cody and Chads birthday.

the big 21. JOY. Since Chad has not yet graduated from

basic training and will be in basic on his birthday :( poor

him. So i decided to do something special for Cody. I got him

a hotel room at the diamond Jack Casino and Resort on the 23rd

of January so he can gamble all his birthday money away. and

he can finally drink legally and so he doesnt have to drive. all

he has to do is just find his way up to his room. haha. also the

room comes with a free massage. which is a very good thing for

me. i sure need one. also the hotel is only 5 minutes away from

the boardwalk. shooppinggg. im extremely excited. i cant wait.

Now on the 27th on January I have to go back up to shreveport that morning and

take Cody to the air port where he will be flying to San Antonio to

go to his brother Chads basic training graduation. Congratulations Chad!

Cody is such a big scardy cat about his car. he hates leaving his car places for a

couple of days. so thats why im taking him to the air port so he doesnt leave his

car there. and doesnt want someone using his car to take him cause they have

full access to his car. but oh well. just another time i get to see him. :D

----it isnt easy being so in love with you and

not being able to see you everyday. there are

times when id give anything just to be able to

gaze into your eyes or hold you in my arms, even

for a few minutes. i always feel incomplete, like a

part of me is missing, when we're not together. i

know that right now this is how things have to be,

but that doesn't make it any easier to bear. every

day without you just reminds me of the joy you add to

my life, joy that i'm missing. so don't forget that i

love you, that i'm thinking of you, and that i'm

counting every minute until we're together again.